6/23/2015 | Share this article: View CommentsBy Rick ~
Let's jump forward 10 years, married with two children. Of course, based on my background, we started attending church and I became very involved in many of the church's programs. This was a very good time in my life and I had a great group of friends and activities in my church. Then one day my pastor, who I was very good friends with, asked me to join the lay ministry of the church .I was honored and he said the first thing I should do was develop a clear testimonial of how I had come to know Jesus so that I would be able to share with others my story of salvation. I went home and began working on the task and after about three days I realized I had no testimonial. I was very upset and called my pastor, we set up some time to talk. Long story short, after six months of meetings with the pastor I came to realize I just didn't get it. During this time there were many days of depression, crying and self doubt.I did not know what was wrong with me. I was looking for a personal relationship with God that I could testify to with absolute certainty. I would have that or I would not profess to be a Christian. The preacher and I realized that there was really nothing else we could do.
A year later I am an agnostic. I really went through Hell trying to make the Christian experience real to me. I am very skeptical of all religious teachings now and no longer attend church. I felt I had no option about attending church because my very presence would be an act of hypocrisy.
Had to give up a lot of friends and social activities. Many of these people don't understand what has happened to me and I will not discuss the issue with them, not out cowardness, but I will not tempt their faith.
Just my story. Would love to hear comments.
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