My Christian Faith is Mortally Wounded

By Matt ~

So I’m not an atheist yet but am not a Christian either. I’ve done investigation and am convinced that there are miracles, believe that prayer has power, and that there is some providential power greater than myself caring for me.

Well over the last two years, whatever Theism I embraced has been dwindling. I would rather there was no God than one like the one that is portrayed as punishing people for ever.

Would rather there was no God if God is the angry Czar who wills people should wail and gnash their teeth for eternity because of the mistakes they make in this brief life. Especially when we are so blinded and often just following our nature when we sin.

I know prayer has power and the people that loved me unconditionally and took me in were almost always Christian,. I'll never say "there is no God" because an insignificant speck of dust who has no authority to make such a declaration shouldn't.

If God would will that people would have to be tortured for eternity, why would the existence of such a God be a good thing, and why would I want to be in Heaven worshiping him for all eternity?More and more I'm beginning to hope Atheists are right. If God would will that people would have to be tortured for eternity, why would the existence of such a God be a good thing, and why would I want to be in Heaven worshiping him for all eternity?

I know that people tend to like to believe what is false. There is so much religious hysteria, propaganda, and fakery out there. However, I’ve done much research into the shroud of Turin, the Certified miracles at Lourdes France, the Miraculous Guadalupe Tilma, and the miracle of Fatima, and believe those are more than just stories, and many unbelievers and/or Scientists and Doctors who have investigated such things, have indeed converted.

However, I can find absolutely nothing rational or good about a God who could be so heartless as to burn in hell those who do not believe in him. Also, what makes me doubt the Christian faith is when I see these upright Christians so full of themselves, superficial, self-righteous, and judgmental, and nonChristians who excel in the greatest theological virtue “Charity” more than 95-99% of Christians.

The fact that Religion is so divided and a confusing mess tells me that God does a poor job of guiding and shepherding even those who have dedicated their lives to him/her.

If God is love as Scripture says he is, then many Atheists/agnostics must have God.

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