I don't know what to believe at this point

By a confused ex-Apostolic ~

My husband and I have recently left the Apostolic Pentecostal church. My husband had been a member of this church since birth, but never truly understood or believed what he had been taught his entire life. He just knew he wasn't allowed to do anything as a child, no movies, no sports, they couldn't even go to Pizza Hut because they started serving beer. His mother went through phases depending on what church they were attending at the time...one year they would have a tv, and the next year they wouldn't.

Long story short, when we met, his mother pounced on me! I was so in love with my husband that I was willing to convert to anything to be with him. His mother knew this and immediately "converted" me into the Apostolic Pentecostal religion. For the first few years it was the most amazing feeling I had ever experienced! The welcome feeling from the church members, the feeling of belonging to a loving and caring church family. I loved it! However, when I began to question why we weren't allowed to do certain things and asked for biblical proof explaining these rules, I never received a decent response...or any response for that matter.

Extremely long story short...we left the church about 3 years ago after several fights with my mother in law who is the worst example of what the bible describes as a 'Christian", and after finding out some things that had happened amongst church members while we attended the church. When we decided to leave, our so-called friends never spoke to us again except to try to persuade us to come back.

Since leaving, I can see that the church is the cause of my kid's behavioral issues and their complete lack of value in their education. It has been very difficult to try to fix what the Apostolic church has destroyed. I was only a member for 6 years, but it was the biggest mistake of my life. I'm so thankful that we came to our senses and left the church before it was too late for my kids to enjoy their childhood.

I don't necessarily consider myself an ex-Christian, more of a confused ex-Apostolic. I don't know what to believe at this point, and I blame it on the Apostolic church 100%.