Shedding the Shackles

By Cordova ~ M y journey from being a staunch bible thumping x-tian to finally being free of the religious shackles was a long and hard one. I grew up in a highly religious community and being an illegitimate child born back in the 1940's somehow made me a 'bad' person. Oh, I was good enough to play with on the school-yard but not good enough to invite to anyone's birthday party. Many times I was told: "You're nothing but a whore's daughter." I remember being very confused and hurt because I couldn't understand why I was being punished for something my mother did. When I was about 16 or 17 years old I caught myself daring to question this 'god' character: "Who are you to demand I worship you; What makes you better than me?" I was immediately overcome with fear, shame and guilt - exactly what religion is DESIGNED to do!!! I begged for forgiveness because I didn't want to burn in hell for an eternity. I became an o...