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Our Love Affair is Over

By VeryBerry ~

I was involved in a love affair with a man whom I loved dearly. He made me feel loved, secure, and accepted. I used to spend countless hours talking to him... I thought that he was a great listener.

Beneath The Sheets.
Beneath the Sheets, by Cloe-e via Flickr
Moreover, he knew about my dreams, hope, fears, secrets, and desires. He even promised to help me overcome my fears and help me fulfill my dreams. In other words, this relationship was my raison d'être. I must also confess that I was so in awe with my lover that I divulged certain aspects of our perfect relationship to several women. In fact, my matchless lover encouraged me to do so. He loved when I bragged about the happiness that he had brought into my pitiful life. Why wouldn't I tell other women? My lover's promises gave me an exhilarating feeling that words could not describe.

But, a few months ago, I decided to end our long- term relationship. Although I trusted my lover, I decided to perform a background check on
him; which led to conclude that he was a heartless imposter, liar, lunatic, and charlatan. I cried for days and I was depressed for a while. I even discovered that his father was a murderer!

In case you haven't guessed it yet, my lover's name was Jesus dubbed the 'Lover of my Soul.' Even though I was involved in a seemingly perfect relationship, something was not right.

Jesus made hundreds of promises that he was unable to keep. For instance, he promised me that " if you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you." John 15:7 (NIV) I requested many small favors from Jesus, but he failed to grant my requests. In addition, he said to me " peace I leave with you; peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." Ironically, I have the peace he promised me after I left him. Furthermore, he threathened me with eternal damnation in order to discourage me from losing my faith in him-- or from running into his rival's arms, Satan. Jesus said, " But the sons of the kingdom will be cast out into the outer darkness; in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."

I can quote dozen more unfulfilled promises, but I don't want to bore my audience.

Jesus also made me feel worthless. He claimed that he was sent by his father to save a wreched woman like me from sins. I could never please him. I was never good enough. I must add that I did most of the talking, Jesus would just listen but he never answered. I was so in love with him that I used to sing love songs to him everyday, I wrote love letters to him, and I declared my love for him publicly. The man was never happy; never satisfied. He was quite possessive too. He demanded that "I take every thought captive..." 2 Coronthians 10:5. He wanted to control my thoughts in order to keep me submissive. To top it off, he asked me to hate my family in order to demonstrate my love and loyalty to him. " If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters-- yes, even his own life, he cannot be my disciple." What a lunatic!

I am delighted to tell everyone who would listen that I ended my 33-year abusive relationship with Jesus. It's over. I am free.