6/03/2010 | Share this article:By Kris --
I really need some help. I was born and raised catholic until the age of 12. Even as a small child, I questioned a lot of the rituals, but wanted to be a good kid, so I went along with a lot of it. I finally got frustrated with having to confess to a priest, and left the religion.
WW III, Communism, etc. so this fit right in for me!!
When I was 13, my mom had to have surgery, so I ended up staying with one of her co-workers for a week. She and her husband ended up being fundamentalists, and I ended up having to sit through a bible study at their house, on--you guessed it-- the end times!! Again, I was scared to death, but listened to everything that they said and was intrigued by the rapture and the possibility of escaping all of this horrible stuff. I quickly converted to their religion and tried to stay holy. After a couple years, I started to dread going to church because I hated the end-time preaching. It just continued to scare me and left me feeling horrible about all of the people going to hell-- including my own friends and family. I also thought that a lot of the preaching seemed to be incorrect-- things that preachers said were going to happen did not, etc. After a while, I finally had enough, and even discovered a few scriptures where Jesus had told his apostles that they would not taste death, etc. I tried to meet with a pastor to discuss my fears of the end-times and confusion with some of the things that I had found in the bible, and his response to me was to see a psychiatrist. I left the church that day in 1990 and have never been back.
I have done a really good job, occasionally freaking out when I hear rumors of temples being rebuilt in Israel (one of the big end-time things!), or some other end-time trigger In the mean time, I tried to live my life not worrying about end-times stuff. I have done a really good job, occasionally freaking out when I hear rumors of temples being rebuilt in Israel (one of the big end-time things!), or some other end-time trigger, but have been able to reason through everything.
However, a year or so ago, a "friend" sent me an email about a microchip implant-- and how it tied to the mark of the beast. It triggered my fears all over again. I don't believe in God at this point, and I feel like I should not even be worrying about the end of the world, but I have a hard time with this one-- I have researched all of the information about the email, and found that there is a company that had marketed a medical microchip that you could put in your arm, and there had been a few test cases of using it for paying for drinks at one bar-- but for the most part, folks were not generally interested. It appears that the company now plans to develop their microchips for glucose-monitoring,etc. That being said, I know that technology could eventually lead us in a direction in which people could possibly put something in our bodies in order to conduct business, etc.
I have a harder time with reconciling things like this, only because one of the biggest end-times subjects was a cashless society, and human bar-coding. I would love not to have to even worry about all of this-- I would be fine with cash, checkbooks, etc. for the rest of my life, or even using a fingerprint as some sort of ID, but now all of the end-timers have jumped onto the microchip bandwagon. I keep telling myself that as long as I don't put that damn chip in my right hand or forehead, I should be OK, but I still get scared. I also have read all of the material on the MOB itself, and that more than likely was a reference to Nero, etc. but I still worry. I have always been such a worry wart, and what could be bigger to worry about than the end-times!! I really want to spend the rest of my life enjoying time with my husband and children, watching them grow up and have kids of their own. A couple of years ago, I thought this was a possibility. Now I find myself back in that weird world of fear-- worrying about the end of the world all over again. How do all of you cope with this?
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