7/25/2011 | Share this article: View CommentsBy Doug ~
I was raised in an extremely pious household. Not to bore you too much with the indoctrination I experienced as a young person, but a little history...
Now mind you, I was seven, and I thought to myself, "Well of course I don't want to burn in hell for eternity!". Now in retrospect, I don't really blame my parents for their answers, it was heartfelt. But now that I have a 3-year-old of my own, I am at odds internally about how to handle this. I do not want to impart indoctrination of my own, I want my boy to make up his own mind. However, I also have issues with knowing that living in a world that is predominantly "God believing" it is impossible for him to not to be exposed to a society that shuns most (or chastises them) for not associating with a specific religion.
I came to the realization on my own after many years. I suppose the questions started early, but I never really did much self analysis due to the extreme guilt I experienced when I allowed myself to "question" the existence and actions of "God". It didn't make sense, even as a 9-year-old. I rember asking my pastor's wife, "what about the kids in Africa that don't have a bible?" the answer was less than satisfactory. The bottom line with me, came when as a Marine in my early 20's I saw things that defied everything I had been led to believe. The atrocities have helped me to see the hypocrisy of what I was taught as a young boy.
Thanks for listening and allowing me to vent.
Filed Under: Testimonials