I don t want to be angry
1/19/2011 | Share this article:
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By Kat ~ I am 23 years old and I am not able to be a Christian anymore after thoroughly investigating and questioning my understanding of it. I was heavily forced into non-traditional American Catholicism as a child by my parents (one a Third-Order Carmelite nun) I haven t been a Christian for years now and I thought I had worked through my feelings about it but I finished The God Delusion
I get angry now when I hear old Bible stories that remind me of being ridiculed as a child for asking questions or when my family attempts to convince me that the origins of one thing or another are Christian (Greek, Roman, Gaelic and Egyptian mythology , obviously insane claims). I have a hard time being civil in discussions with them and I feel my reactions are becoming overblown and will ultimately undermine my intent -- trying to help my family especially the younger generation understand or examine their own doubts and the wealth of evidence around us regarding blind religious fervor in general.
I have a good support system now but these people weren't indoctrinated as I was and I wouldn't mind finding out how other people deal with this sort of thing on a day to day basis. I live in a remote area without support groups or anything and I'm a mother who works full time. Any comment would be spectacular.
I used to be able to enjoy art, stories and music regardless of it s origins but I feel bitter about how I was made to feel 15 years ago and how I am treated by my family now since rejecting the concepts i was taught. I don't want to be angry, I want to be able to listen and respond to discussions in an adult manner and enjoy what I once did now for the fiction it is or the artistry of it without flashbacks or stupid psychosomatic responses -- please help...

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